Wednesday, December 05, 2007


BNLP stands for "Big New Life Plan". This is the phrase that my best friend Lisa and I use when we have hit a point in our lives when we are ready to re-group and make a few changes. We are not happy with how things are going and after a moments to pause and reflect on the changes we want to make in our life, the big new life plan is born. My BNLP is to basically be myself pre 12/12/06, the day of my miscarriage. After the second IUI did not work for us a few weeks ago, I went from rock bottom to the crap that lays on rock bottom. I felt so low and sorry for myself, it was just awful. Throughout the year I have withdrawn from friends, quit bookclub, turned down numerous social invitations, and just tried to keep to myself and my misery. It has been a hard year and I know that I have had a pretty good reason. After doing a lot of thinking, I have decided that I can either continue this negative attitude about life or I can grow up and realize how lucky I am with what I have. I have the best husband a woman could ever ask for and we are building the home of our dreams. I have a wonderful family and a wonderful group of friends. I am truly a lucky girl and will have a new outlook on life from this day forward. I have picked back up with my bookclub group and I am starting to reach back out to friends. I feel so much better already, god has giving me so much and I am going to start appreciating it and live my life to the fullest. So thank you to all of those who have had to put up with me, a happier me is here to stay.
(The above picture is from Liberty's scavenger hunt back in October, I am the one on the top right handside.)

1 comment :

  1. You sound just like me a few months ago!! In Oct. I had a minor melt down myself, where I was down there on the bottom, looking up. Watching everyone around me get things that I wanted so badly. I had my cry fest, threw the tantrum like a toddler and the next day decided just what you posted about here.

    Life is too short to be sad and closing yourself off. (guilty of that as well)And sure you had/have a right to be sad. You have been through a lot. It has made you stronger though. Sometimes we all have to go through these times, so we can remember just how blessed we really are. In the last few months my attitude is very different. I'm looking up. I'm enjoying life as you are!

    Things always get better and you are a very blessed lady, as you said. God has more blessings in store for you. He's just preparing you for them:)

    Hugs to you on this new journey! I'm so happy that you are getting back to the old you again. I'm sure it feels wonderful:) Keep enjoying it all!


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