Dear Jillian, wow, how is it that you are three months already? My maternity leave is over tomorrow and I am typing this with such a heavy heart. I am so sad that I will no longer be spending every day with you. I know it's only three days a week but it still doesn't make things any easier for Mommy. I often wondered how I would feel going back to work ever since Daddy and I thought about having kids. I honestly thought I would be bored to tears at home and would be counting down the days to go back to work. Now that the time has finally come, I honestly do not feel like I thought I would. I am very upset about leaving you and not looking forward to going back to work at all. I know Daddy would give me his blessing if I wanted to stay home and not go back but I feel like I need to do this. My boss is being so incredibly flexible with me for letting me go part time and it will be nice to have the extra income to help us save for fun things like family vacations, fun toys and clothes for you, and eventually for your education. On Monday's, you will be spending your day with Nana which will be so good for you and I know she is going to love it. On Wednesdays and Thursdays, you will be at your new "school" and meeting so many new friends. Mommy's co-worker's baby girl will have her crib right next to yours and I know you two will become good friends. I know you will make a lot of friends and learn so many different things there. You are such a sweet and happy baby girl that I know they are going to love you as much as I do.
I think the biggest milestone this month for you was that you found your hands. And, boy do you love to stick them in your mouth! You are also trying to suck your thumb, you are sometimes successful, and other times it's the thumb plus half of your fist. You also love to suck on your forefinger to a point where it's all raw. You will make a face when you stick your finger in your mouth because it probably hurts you but you continue to suck on it anyway. Having such a huge fascination with your hands has given Mommy and Daddy one of the biggest sleeping challenges that we have faced. For the last two weeks, you no longer like to be swaddled since it pins down your beloved hands. You immediately start trying to pull your arms out of your swaddle like a little Houdini. However, once your hands are free, you still flail and hit yourself in the head causing you to wake up several times a night and cry. It's been a no win situation for Mommy and Daddy since you hate to be swaddled but you still need it for a good night's sleep. Mommy had a rough couple of weeks and started to nap again in the mornings just to try to make up for the broken sleep I was having every night. There were even a few times Mommy and Daddy let you cry, we knew you weren't hungry and that you just wanted us to come get you. We felt badly about it and would watch your little face on the monitor to make sure you were OK. You did go back to sleep eventually which is a great skill for you to learn on your own. Going back to bed without our help. Your swaddling love/hate relationship still continues but we came to a solution by only swaddling one of your arms. You have the access to a hand and also feel a little more secure at the same time. We have tried this method all week and it has helped tremendously. Mommy feels almost human again! We have also started using the Homedics Sound Machine on the Ocean feature. By trying both of these new sleep tricks, you are back to sleeping 4-5 hour stretches again at night. Your bedtime has also been a lot earlier these past few weeks and we think we may have finally established a bedtime routine for you. We bring you up to bed around 8pm to put your jammies on and to play your aquarium for you. Daddy will then turn on the sound machine and give you a bottle instead of Mommy breast feeding you. This way we can see how much milk you are getting. This is to ensure you eat enough before bedtime. You are usually pretty drowsy after your bottle and Daddy will rock you to sleep. This has been working most of the time and Daddy gets some one on one time with you.
Your favorite activity by far has to be your bath time. You absolutely love it!!!! From the moment you are in your tub, your arms and legs are kicking and moving uncontrollably. It's the cutest thing in the world. Mommy and Daddy are completely soaked by the time you are done so it's pretty much a family bath time, not just yours! We try to let you play and kick for as long as possible because you actually fuss and cry when we try to take you out! It's hard to believe a three month old has such a strong opinion about things but when it comes to your bath time, you do! Bath time is one of our favorite memories so far of you as a baby. We will always remember your crazy little legs splashing away!
Breast feeding has been going really well, it's true what they say that if you can make it past the two month mark, you should be fine. It doesn't hurt Mommy anymore and I can't remember the last time I had to use the lanolin! I have been trying to pump a lot more because I feel like my supply has dipped just a little since we are now into a routine. I used to have too much milk and such a strong let down that once everything stabilized, I feel like I really need to make sure that I keep my supply going. Especially now that Mommy is returning to work!
You love playing in your baby gym and kicking in your bouncy seat. Your lamb swing is also your favorite place to nap, however, Mommy has been trying to get you to nap in your crib this past week. You only take short naps in your crib because your arms still flail about and wake you up. Hopefully you will get better soon once you get used to those free arms! Your hand eye coordination is improving every day and you have even started to shake a rattle with Mommy's assistance. You also pull the lever on your duckie when you are in your car seat, and you really love your new pink cell phone!!!! It is so much fun to watch your grow, you get such a sweet smile on your face, it's like you know that you just learned something new and wonderful. Mommy just bought you the new Sophie giraffe that I have heard so much about. I am hoping that she also becomes one of your favorite toys! You have also started to drool on occasion which is a sign of harder gums from your teeth underneath. No sign of them yet but I am sure they are going to be popping up in a month or two. Your are really starting to express a lot more excitement and energy lately, especially in the morning after a good night's sleep. Your arms and legs are always moving, especially when you are on your changing table. You also will let out a random squeal when I try to burp you over my shoulder. It's too cute.
You now weigh around 12 pounds 5 ounces and are still in 0-3 month clothes and size one diapers. I always have so much fun dressing you everyday and will send a picture to Daddy of you in your little outfits. You are in trouble my girl since your Mommy also loves to wear cute clothes!!! Your eyes are still blue but a very dark shade of blue. I am wondering what color they will eventually change to if at all.
Mommy got her wish of good weather in March and we were finally able to take several walks around the neighborhood. It felt so good to get out of the house after such a snowy February!!! Mommy also finally mastered how to work your stroller after several attempts that included a trip to the mall gone wrong!
Thank you for these three wonderful months at home with you my baby girl. I have learned so much being your Mommy I can't wait to watch you learn and grow even more.
Weight: 12 pounds 5 ounces (50th percentile) Height: We didn't measure you this month. Clothing: 0-3, a few 0-3 sleepers are tight in the legs! Diapers: Size one. Favorite Toys: Bouncer Seat, Baby Gym, Fisher Price Aquarium, Fisher Price Pink Cell phone, and Baby Einstein duck. You haven't used your sea horse much especially now that we have the new sound machine going at bedtime. Favorite Past time: Bath Time. Communication: Smiles, coos and squeals. You try to laugh but it's just a funny inhaling noise at the moment. Cries: Biggest cry is when you are hungry, will occasionally cry when you tired and can't fall asleep. You need an extra walk around the house with Mommy or Daddy or a ride in your swing to help. Bedtime: Lately before 9pm. Food: Breast Milk with a bottle from Daddy at bedtime.