Thursday, August 12, 2010
Jillian has certainly been Mommy's little buddy lately and I think it is also the start of separation anxiety. At first I thought it was just a fluke, however, a few of her reactions to situations lately have made me realize that is exactly what is happening. She is starting to reach for me lately which I love. Any time I see those cute little arms reaching out at me, I can't resist giving her a big hug and kiss in return.
The first signs of separation anxiety from Mommy seem to be happening during her bedtime routine. Twice now Jeff has been on bedtime duty and I can hear her crying from her bedroom. I felt badly hearing her cry so much, so of course I went into her bed room to see what was going on. She immediately starts reaching for me and then stops crying once she is in my arms. As happy as I was that she was actually showing her first signs of wanting Mommy, I felt horrible that it was at the expense of Jeff's feelings. I know he felt badly about it so I couldn't exactly enjoy the moment.
The second situation occurred while I was picking Jillian up from daycare. I walked into the infant room and saw her bouncing away in a jumperoo. She immediately spotted me and started smiling and bouncing even harder. Debra, one of Jillian's care givers, walked over to pull her out of the jumperoo and Jillian started crying hysterically. She had wanted me to pick her up and obviously didn't realize that Debra was trying to pick her up so she could hand her to me. Once she did hand her over to me, she clings to my shoulders and starts burying her head in my chest. She completely took me off guard but it made my heart just absolutely melt after a long day at the office.
Over the past few weeks, Jillian has also turned into my little cuddle bug. Jillian used to love to lay on our chest as a newborn, however, after a month, she wouldn't do it anymore. When we would try to lay her head on our chest, she would protest by moving her head back and forth from side to side and kept purposely picking it up. So needless to say, I am extremely excited my little cuddle bug has returned and now enjoys laying on my chest once again. Her new favorite position when she is tired is to lay her head on my shoulder. She has fallen asleep like that a few times this past week and it is adorable. It also makes it easier for me to cuddle with her in her glider and then easily place her in her crib once she is asleep.
I love all of these new moments with my little girl, every little stage she goes through, I find myself saying, I don't want you to change, I love you the way you are!!!! And then she goes and tries something new and I fall in love all over again. I just love being Jillian's Mommy, I am one lucky girl.