Sunday, November 30, 2008

The Canopy nightstands are here!

They are finally assembled and in the bedroom. They look fantastic, I can't believe it's Wal-Mart furniture. Jeff and I both agree that they exceeded our expectations. We bought the nightstands first before purchasing the entire bedroom set just to be sure they looked good, and they do! Jeff was also very pleased with how easy they were to assemble. Not a lot of swearing went on which is huge! :) I would definitely recommend them.

Saturday, November 22, 2008


I really love this rug in KatNMatt's entryway. It is currently at Lowe's and I am thinking of purchasing it for underout kitchen table and for also the front and side entry ways. I love the brown, blues, and greens. I really think it will pull together the main colors of our house.

Week 5

We made it to week 5!!! I am still in shock but it is starting to sink in. It's been such a happy week, life after infertility is just so wonderful. I am just thankful everyday and I can't believe we are finally back here again. Of course, I am still scared to death. I have purchase a whole set of white underwear which will clue me in on any spotting incidents right away. I am nuts I know but I am just so scared of having a miscarriage again. Right away this little peanut seems to be strong. I got a strong positive test right at 13dpo and my boobs have been SORE! I don't remember them being this sore the last time and BIG! I bought a 34D bra yesterday at Target just to see if it would fit better than my C's have been lately and it did! OMG, I can't believe I am at a D already! I haven't been experiencing too many other symptoms just yet, my sense of smell has increased a little, it seems like I can really smell my co-workers lunches at work. It's so hard to keep quite about this again. We told our parents right away and plan on telling my siblings and Grandma at dinner next Friday. We will be almost 6 weeks pregnant by then. Week 6-7 was the ugly time for us the last time around so I know I am going to be a nervous wreck up until our 7 week ultra sound. I am trying to enjoy this as much as I can and try not to be such a nervous freak about too much. It took us so long just to get back here that I don't want to be afraid my whole pregnancy and look back and realize I didn't even enjoy it. Of course part of me wishes someone would just knock me out until July and then let me just ride out the last few weeks of my prenancy knowing my baby is full term and it's summer!!!!!!

Living Room

Our living room is completely empty at the moment. It just has a lamp in it from our old house where we had 8,000 floor lamps since we had no overhead lights! Anyway, I really would like to put a few pieces in this room and don't want to spend a ton of money. It's not a room that we will most likely use very often, however, it's the first room you see when you walk in the front door so it really needs something! Here are few pieces I found from Crate and Barrel. They have an amazing line of assemble yourself pieces. They are so reasonably prices and totally my style. Practical for our sitting room. Add a few end tables,silk curtains, and a table lamp and the room is complete!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Wow! My First Blog Award!

Jennifer over at This Girl Loves Pink! has chose me for a Kreativ Blogger award. I am so touched, thanks so much! She and I just started to follow each other's blog and I am loving it so far.

The way this works is I post about 6 things I'm thankful for and then post my 6 picks for the Kreativ Blogger Award. Drumroll please...

1. My husband and best friend Jeff, we have been only married for three years but have been together for eight! I can't imagine my life without him. He has been my rock as we deal with infertility together. He is going to make an amazing Daddy one day!

2. My sister, she is also my best friend! I can have two, right? I think we talk ten times a day and I can't imagine ever going one day without talking. She is expecting her first baby in April and I am so excited be an Aunt again!!!!

3. My Parents, they have always been selfless and loving in everything they do. I am very lucky to have grown up with such a great family.

4. My House, building our dream home was such a fun and exciting experience. I am having so much fun decorating it! The neighbors are so friendly and our backyard is filled with so much wildlife. We are staying here forever.

5. My Job, this is a tricky one. It has it's moments but in this economy I am so thankful to be gainfully employed.

6. Summer, I miss it already. I am not a winter person and I am already counting down the days until it's over 70 degrees again. I will be counting awhile....

6 Of My Fellow Bloggers Who I'm Passing The Torch Too....

1. Randi over at My Moments as Told by Me. She is my first official blogging friend. She is a total sweetheart and possibly the cutest pregnant girl ever.

2.Susie over at The Shafer's are a Family. Susie and I met on The Nest but coincidentally enough worked for the same company and both met our husbands there! Susie and I have both know the evils of miscarriage and have an important date in common.

3.Jill over at Desperately Seeking Spawn. Jill is currently about to go through a Frozen Egg Transfer cycle at Denver's CCRM. This is the country's premier place for infertility and I know they are going to help her become a mommy this Thanksgiving.

4.Melissa at Melissa's Heart and Home. Lucky for me, Melissa found my blog and I haven't been able to stop drooling over her beatiful brick home. I can't wait to see what decor ideas she comes up with next!

5.Katie at The Hyper Homemaker. I loved her cleaning challenge, my kitchen never looked better or more organized. Her decorating and organizing tips are so easy and fun!

6.The famous "D" over at All Things G&D. I love this girls sense of style, hence, the whole reason I bought my fabulous West Elm grommet drapes. Her whole house is an inspriation!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Great Room Windows - Chapter 2

So now that the West Elm curtains have been hung, my next step is to purchase the West Elm Grommet silk panels in espresso to compliment the slider panels. I plan on hanging the panels like this:

as shown in Southern Lady's Blog.

I like how she has the mini rod's on either side of a large grouping of windows. This way it will add some decorative style to the great room but won't block out the beautiful view in our backyard.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

The kitchen drapes are up!

I am so excited with how they turned out, I am really happy with my final choice. It's been a long time coming! :)

Get out the tissues for this one!

Infertility rips out our heart every day, however, one positive outcome are all the wonderful women I have met on the "Trouble Trying to Conceive" board on The Nest. I have learned from this board so many evils of infertility and how no life should ever be taken from granted. I have also seen the miracle of what modern day medicine can do for a couple that is challenged by infertility. MayDayGirl is no stranger to The Nest or this board and I have had a joy following her story from two failed apoption attemps to a successful Inveto-fertilization with ICSI. Here is a slideshow of the birth of her son on November 15th. He is truely a miracle. LINK

Friday, November 14, 2008

My miracle

**I am writing this journal on November 14th to document the beginning of our pregnancy but obviously unable to share until we share with our family and friends.**

I honestly never thought this day would come. I feel as if I was walking around with a cloud above my head for the past two years. Nothing can replace the joy of building a dream home with Jeff, but somehow it was always bittersweet because of our loss of Hyphen. Typically miscarriages are horrible in themselves. You grieve, you are angry, you are sad, and then acceptance. They are then slowly replaced by hope as you try again for a new baby. The majority are blessed again and the sadness is replaced with the hopes and dreams of a new life growing inside of them. When you experience a loss, there is always one person who will tell you "Well, at least you can get pregnant." That was a consoling piece of advice to everyone but us. We weren't getting pregnant again and each month and new treatment that failed seemed to bring new feelings of failure, sadness, insecurities, disappointment and depression. As an infertile woman you feel alienated from society, as if your are wearing the modern day Scarlett letter. Especially for a 34 year old woman without children. Most people who knew me and what we were going through didn't really know how to act around me, they didn't know what to say. Most times they would just avoid me because they were afraid to say the wrong thing. Some people did say the wrong thing and you just ended up feeling even more of a failure and a disappointment to society. I am sure I was not easy to be around either, I have gone through several periods of withdrawl where I would avoid social situations. I would skip out on bookclub and other events when I just didn't have the heart to deal with putting on a brave face and smile as if nothing was wrong in my life. I also would just sit around at home feeling sorry for myself, diving head first into decorating our home and trying to forget that anything was wrong.
After my surgery and diagnosis of endometriosis, our doctor recommended that we try on our own. Although the idea of conceiving a child on our own seemed like a a dream come true for us, we decided that we weren't getting any younger and to continue on with the next set of infertility treatments. The next treatments for us were the Follistim injections and Ovidrel trigger shot. Yikes! This was the first set of infertility treatments for us that involved paying out of pocket. Everything had been covered by insurance so far so this was just one more stressful item to add to the already stressful equation. We were quoted that it would run us around $2,000 a month between the ultra sound monitoring, the doctors analysis of my results, bloodwork, and injection drugs. I wish we would have taped Jeff giving me my first injection because I am sure it would have entertained several people on YouTube. There were a lot of tears and whining on my end, then yelling on Jeff's end, more tears, more yelling and then finally he just did it. It actually wasn't that bad. It was more a fear of the unknown for me. It was definitely a first in our relationship. Not that the next several shots were ticklish by any means, they just became more bareable. I finally triggered on October 29th, this was supposed to release the two mature eggs that I had grown from the injections and to prepare us for our artificial insemination (IUI) on October 31st, Halloween. The trigger shot was fine too, I took it like any infertile girl would knowing that it was all for a good cause. The IUI was a banner one for us, all stars seemed to algin for this cycle. My tubes had been blown out as a part of my surgery, the endo was gone, I had produced two mature eggs, and Jeff's numbers were off the charts. It was definetly the best chance we had had since the miscarraige.
The trigger shot was supposed to contain HcG, the pregnancy hormone. I definitely felt these false pregnancy symptoms from the trigger shot and had major sore boobs for days. Eleven days after our IUI, my boobs were still really sore. I commented to Jeff that the trigger must really be potent with me because the symptoms never seemed to wear off. On Thursday, November 13th, I decided to take a pregnancy test. I didn't feel pregnant, but I knew we would most likely have an accurate reading by that morning and we could at least know our fate and then move on. It was something I pretty much did every month unless we knew for sure that evil AF was on her way. I got outof bed and told Jeff I was taking the digital pregnancy test that Debbie, my sister, had given to me. She had given me her leftover pregnancy test since she was now expecting a baby of her own. I made Jeff promise not to get upset and that we would try again. I kept trying to prepare him for another negative test. I hated seeing the dissappointment on his face every month, it was worse than the negative test in itself. I thought this one was another failure since our miscarriage,
our 25th failed cycle. I took the test and set it down on the counter top, almost immediately a "Pregnant" popped up on the digital reader. I immediately thought to myself, great, it's the darn trigger still in my system. They are known to trigger false positives. I walked out of the bedroom and with a very unenthusiastic tone, I said to Jeff, "Well, it's positive." He turns around in bed and looked at me. "What?!?" He then puts the pillow over his head. He also thinks it's the trigger. I jumped back in bed with him and we started debating what this meant. It had to be the trigger, my boobs never stopped hurting as a sign that it wore off. This was our first time doing this so we didn't know what kind of affect it would have on me. It was unbelievable, we didn't know what to think. Should we be happy or not? Do we dare get our hopes up? It can't be possible.
Jeff jumped in the shower and I immediately went on The Nest to the "Trouble Trying to Conceive" board. I was taking the day off because I had also been blessed with a horrible cold. I posted my question on the message board about the trigger shot and explained that I had gotten a positive on a pregnancy test. Every response I received explained there was no way it was trigger and that it should be out by 10 days past ovulation. I was at 13 days past ovulation. Hope started to slowly creep in. Could it be? I told Jeff and he dismissed their responses. Call the doctor he says. So I left my IVF nurses a message. After a few hours and no returned phone call, I called back again. Finally, a live person! I explained to nurse Judy my situation and she said there was no way it's the trigger shot and congratulations, I am pregnant!!! I just couldn't believe it. Had our day finally come? Had my surgery been worth it? Had the majorly expensive shots given us the boost we needed? Was it twins since I had two eggs? All these questions were rolling around in my brain. Nurse Judy ordered me a blood test so I drove down to the Willoughby Cleveland Clinic lab and took a blood test. Jeff came home and we just hugged and smiled a lot the rest of the night. We just couldn't believe our luck had finally turned, our biggest wish had finally come true.
I stayed home again the next day after coughing and blowing my nose all night. I couldn't take any cold medicine because of my pregnancy so I just stayed home and tried to take care of myself. The nurse called with my beta results and told me it was a 78!!!! That is a perfect standard number for someone who was 13 days past ovulation when the blood test was administered. A strong number, another victory!!! I asked again for another blood test, typically you want the number to double every 48 hours. I don't think she felt that I needed one but I think another strong number would put my mind even more at ease. Hopefully that is exactly what it is and not something for me to question and second guess!!!! The nurse also scheduled me for my first 7 week ultra sound on December 4th with my fertility specialist. If all goes well for this appointment and we see a little heartbeat, I will be officially released from the world of infertility and back to my regular OBGYN!!! I can't believe it. I am just so in aw and in a happy place right now. I can't even explain it. Memories are starting to come back to me from my first pregnancy, all the happy memories that Jeff and I had shared that had been gone for two years. I now have to think back again to what I can and cannot eat, etc. I need to dust off those pregnancy books and figure out what to do next. I praise god for finally answering our prayers and hope HE knows how thankful we are for this wonderful gift. We pray it grows to be a happy and healthy child one day.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008


We ordered the Canopy nightstands from Wal-Mart today. Our intent is to purchase the entire bedroom set but wanted to be sure that we liked the quality of the nightstands first before purchasing everything. If you get the items shipped to the store, they are free so it's just an amazing deal that we couldn't pass up. I will post a product review once we receive them, I know there a lot of people out there curious about if this set is as nice as it looks in their ad. There were also a few Nesties who say they have seen the wood samples displayed in their local Wal-Mart and the quality is amazing. We shall see, I hope it works out!!!

My drapes arrived!!!

So my new west elm drapes arrived FINALLY after having to order them twice. The first set they sent me were a pair of silver silk dupioni drapes. They were beautiful and all but not quite what I had ordered!!!!! In the interim of the arrival of my new drapes, I found a few more that I am now eyeing so I am back to square one. My theory of seperating the two rooms is still important to me but I am just wondering perhaps if my room needs some COLOR. I am going to buy the Bed Bath and Beyond drapes in the taupe, green, and red for comparison purposes. Hopefully something will be on my wall by this weekend!!!!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

This morning I woke up to this!!!!

Ugh! Our first snow fall, I couldn't believe my eyes when I rolled out of bed this morning. This is what we get I guess for living in the snow belt of Cleveland!

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Day 1 Cleaning Challenge Complete!

I wrapped up Day 1 of The Hyper Homemaker's cleaning challenge FINALLY tonight. The fridge has been officially cleaned out, old food thrown away, sink scrubbed, and cabinets reorgnaized. Wow! Glad to see Day 2 is a little easier!!! Here are a few pics of my fridge progress.



Easy Chicken and Biscuits

I was craving a biscuit topped casserole and found this yummy treat on Jeff and I both loved it, it will be a new staple in our household this winter. Perfect comfort food for those long, cold winter nights. One tip that I would like to share is that I used the Grands Flaky Biscuits. I really like how they flake apart in my breakfast casseroles and knew they would be perfect for this one too. I would recommend when you cut your biscuits into little pieces to lay on top the casserole, cut them thin. I left them a little thick and they ended up being too doughy in the middle. Enjoy!!!!

Easy Chicken and Biscuits
From: Campbell's Kitchen
Prep: 10 minutes
Bake: 35 minutes

Serves: 4


1 can (10 3/4 oz.) Campbell's® Condensed Cream of Broccoli Soup (Regular or 98% Fat Free)
1 can (10 3/4 oz.) Campbell's® Condensed Cream of Potato Soup
2/3 cup milk
1/2 tsp. poultry seasoning
1/8 tsp. ground black pepper
2 cups frozen mixed vegetables
2 cups cubed cooked chicken OR turkey
1 pkg. (4 1/2 oz.) refrigerated biscuit


MIX soups, milk, poultry seasoning, black pepper, vegetables and chicken in 2-qt. shallow baking dish.

BAKE at 400°F. for 20 minutes or until hot. Stir.

ARRANGE biscuits over chicken mixture. Bake 15 minutes more or until biscuits are golden.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Day 1 of Cleaning Challenge - 50% complete

I don't have a lot of time in the evenings to clean but I am making progress. My goal is get caught up tonight while Jeff is at hockey. Here are few before and after pics of my progress, hopefully I will have even more tonight to share!

BEFORE: My messy pantry!

My kitchen still looks like this as of this morning, all of the stuff I took out of the pantry that I need to find a space for. The pantry seems to be a dumping ground for me and I need to start thinking differently about where I put everything.

AFTER: My new organizers from The Container Store! My pantry is starting to come together, this was the big project I wanted to tackle. I plan on cleaning the rest of the kitchen tonight and hopefully get a jump start on Day 2.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

The Ultimate Fall Cleaning Challenge!

When Katie at The Hyper Homemaker posted her Fall cleaning list the other day, I was completely inspired and completely overwhelmed too! Luckily for me, she somehow got inside my brain, read my thoughts, and broke it down into do-able daily tasks. My house is clean, however, it could really use a deep clean...and organization as you have all read recently. One of my biggest fears is having my new home not feel so new or clean anymore. According to the challenge, we are starting with the kitchen first. I am so pumped, my fridge needs it! I will also include pics of my progress, I can't wait to show off all my hard work!!!

Here is my Day 1 List

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Other Decorating Resources

Other websites that I visit to research decorating ideas is simply I love looking at Atlanta, Georgia and Charlotte, NC homes. Primarily because these two areas are growing and have a lot of new construction homes. These are also two areas that I would love to live in, but of course would never pull the trigger unless all my family decided to come with us. So for now, a girl can dream and just look at all the lovely southern homes. Here is a home that I particularly love in an Atlanta suburb. Look at this kitchen! Look familiar with the cherry cabinets and light color granite? It reminds me so much of our home and even has the same decorating challenge as I do. Two sets of windows in the kitchen and great room with no real defining space. I was happy to see this home display two different, yet complimenting, color panels. It only reinforces my decision of going with two different color window panels. I think I am finally ordering the two tone grommet drapes from West Elm this week! I am so excited, I can't wait for them to arrive!!